Trust you'll make the right decisions . . . always . . .

Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do. ~Benjamin Spock

If you're a regular reader of my blog, you know I'm a big believer in always, always, always . . . ummm ALWAYS trusting your instincts. I can't stress it enough! I mean, whenever I've gone against what my solar plexus is telling me, things have not turned out right. Ever! So, back on December 3rd, I wrote about an old friend, FEAR, coming in and trying to mess with my head. There were a few things going on at that time, a few changes that seemed to be happening, and I started to feel a hesitation. Since these were good things and they seemed to be along the same path that I wanted to go in, I just thought that my hesitation and lack of being 100% excited was due to FEAR of change. I thought it was FEAR of taking the necessary steps to move to the next phase of my life. I mean, I had been working with Erin Stutland in the Magical Manifesters group for a couple of months at this time. Some of these changes that were being presented to me stemmed from opportunities that had come up due to our work together. So, of course FEAR was trying to mess with my head and get me to start questioning my decisions . . . or was it?

It is now January 12th and in hindsight, I see that I was right . . . it was fear rearing its ugly head at me back in December. But, it wasn't for the reasons that I had previously thought and mentioned above. It was fear of NOT trusting my own instincts and making the wrong decisions about the steps I needed to take to make the necessary changes in my life. Does that make sense? I was afraid that the opportunities that were presented, weren't the right opportunities for me. Now, don't get me wrong . . . the opportunities and ideas were pretty damn good. And I do think that the reason my solar plexus wasn't in an outright uproar was because these ideas grew from a state of peace and calm, rational thinking and not out of desperation. So what if it wasn't exactly what I wanted, it was still a great thing happening.

Well, I decided to take it easy on this new venture. I took some time off towards the end of December and meditated on everything. I worked on my art. I started work on two commissioned Magicalized Portraits. I enjoyed time with Jhon and friends and time at home just relaxing and being open to the possibilities. I basically surrendered to the Universe once again. Letting it know that I completely trusted the fact that only GOOD would flow to me. And in a matter of a couple of weeks, I am happy to announce that only BRILLIANT, SHINING GOOD has indeed come my way.

The path is clear. The clarity of mind and spirit has never been greater. There is NO FEAR present in any cell of my body. Every step I take is decidedly sure and strong. I feel protected. I feel empowered. I see why everything happened the way it did. I also realized how wonderful the support and work done with Erin's Magical Manifesters has been and hopefully, will continue to be. Working with the group gave me the confidence to really trust in myself. And, I also felt that if one thing didn't work out as planned, I had the ability and support to try another, and another, and another if there was a need. As more details are revealed to me, I will then reveal them to you. Just know that some times, your gut instincts aren't as loud as you might think they'd be. You'll still feel something, but not as strong. Some times, they are a little bit muted and those are the times when it is best to take a breather. Stop all decision-making and let the answers flow. . . they'll come in due time. It's all MAGIC!

Peace and Light and KEEP DREAMING, no matter what!

Gene-Manuel

Hooray for 2009! - Part One

Most human beings have an almost infinite capacity for taking things for granted. ~Aldous Huxley

I honestly can't believe that it is the end of 2009! I mean, really? Really? The year is over? It feels as if I just recently became comfortable with writing the number 2009 every night in my Gratitude Journal. But, even if it's hard for me to comprehend how the year has flown by, there's no denying that it indeed has. Not only has the year come to a close but so has the decade. It's all a wondrous miracle and an eye-opening experience because this feeling of how fleeting time is means, to me at least, that I didn't really pay much attention. Somehow, I went into auto-pilot for the past 10 years, or let's say 8 & 1/2, since for the past year and a half I've been in the process of awakening. But, instead of lamenting over the time that I've lost, it's time to take stock of all the incredible things that have happened to me and all of the things I've done and accomplished.

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In my last Magical Manifesters meeting this month, Erin had us write down a few of the things we had manifested over the past year. She broke it down into different areas, such as Work, Personal Life, Career, etc. It was such a great exercise because unless you take the time to acknowledge all of the work you've done, it's very easy to dismiss it all. How many times in the last few days have you heard someone say Good Riddance to 2009! Yeah! They can't wait for this year to be over. . . It was such a bad year! Next year must be better than this one. And on and on and on. The interesting part is that most of these people said the same thing last year, and the year before that, and most likely, the year before that one as well.

This time around, I suggest we all follow Erin's lead and take some time to go over the past year and write down all of things that jump out at you. They could be obvious things like getting a big promotion at work or having a baby to the little things, such as painting your apartment or buying that new winter coat you needed so badly. You can break the lists down into categories, such as Work, Personal Life, Home Life, Relationships, Career, Health, Dreams, etc. Take your time and go through the year and allow these things to come forth. When you've finished with this list or lists, read them over and pay attention to how some of the things you've written down make you feel. This is a great way to determine how your year has gone for you. Do most of the things on your list bring you joy? Happiness? A sense of accomplishment? A sense of Peace? Or, are there areas where an obvious improvement is necessary? What are the actions you could start to take right now to bring that improved state to that particular area of your life?

Making this Year-End List is a great way to be able to visualize all the different parts of your life. Once you've taken stock and are more aware, then you'll be in a much better place to move forward. If you see a pattern that you've been stuck in for the past year, what are some of the steps you can take to get out of it? On the other hand, where did you excel and what did you do in those areas? What action steps did you do, either without knowing or on purpose, to get you where you wanted to be? Can those same steps help you in other areas of your life? See how this works? It all comes down to being aware. What works and what doesn't. Once you know, you are more apt to be able to move forward in the right direction.

Of course, gratitude plays a huge role in end-of-the-year recaps. Love, love, love Gratitude! Hmmm that's another wonderful list to do. I'll go into that on my next entry. I have so many, many incredible things to be grateful for that have happened to me this past year. In addition, 2010 has already started to shine its light . . . it's quite bright . . .

Peace and Light to you and KEEP DREAMING!

Gene-Manuel